Catch a breath.

I need to...

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GASP FOR SOME FRESH AIR!

School'd been such a depressing thing.
Friends are changing, in and out.
Studies is dropping, a whole dip.
Relationships, seems impossible.

I dont like this feeling,
where I am all alone, in this class.
where I have limited friends,
and if they are occupied , im alone :/

I dont like this feeling,
that I am unhappy when my results is superb, to me.
School life turned numb, there's no more joy, no more sadness.
Everything just seemed like a routine, one we all have to follow.

I dont like this feeling,
that I keep doubting my friends,
over and over again, without fail.
I like to trust them,
and really love them for who they are,
but I guess I'd really failed.

I dont like this feeling,
my mind is full of things like
authority & power & winning others.
and not true help, true bonds & true commitment.

I dont like this feeling,
that I think I am a attention seeker.
I hate attention seeker,
but yet im behaving like one,contradicting.

I dont like this feeling,
that teachers become so unapproachable.
They just care to do what they have to do,
and no longer care for the welfare of students.

I dont like this feeling,
because I am just an odinary guy
studying in an odinary school,
with my extraodinary friends.

Results

Here are the results for mid year :)

English Paper 1 : 38/60
English Paper 2 : 27/50
Total : 59/100

E maths Paper 1: 77/80
E maths Paper 2 :78/80
Total: 97/100

A math: 73/80
Total : 91/100

Pure Biology : 74/100
Pure Chemistry: 78/100

Geography: 37/100
Social Studies 44/100
Total: 81/100

Higher Mother Tongue: 126/200
Total: 63/100

Positive

tomorrow = ss + amaths
damn scared..
no i must stay high,
i will score well tomorrow :)

today i love you.
tomorrow too.
forever it will
be this case.

anyway, friends,
a simple request :
stop reminding me
i've a ex girlfriend.

Pressure

Sec3 is really a very fearful year.
Everyone is so worried about their results.

Some of us are able to excel in secondary 1 &2
because there were just too many slackers.
but this time round, even the other class
became the super guai kias people.

It's not a biased view, but I really thinks
if the other class has a standard higher than ours,
its time for us to chiong really hard.

One thing i know, no more top 40 this time round ):
may even fail a few subjects.